more to come

today met shi fu at the bus interchange..he's really good to help me take my lappy..which weigh tonnes to me..LoL..somemore today need to climb the hill to LT 45..Thanks man!..

dunno wad happen to the traffics in the morning..two 184 was full before it arrives to my stop..which is very rare..missed 2 buses and thus i was LATE!..i reached at 9.17 at the LT..

y locate our Lt so far..so incovenient lo..somemore it's engineering block..*grr*

i saw one girl in canteen 1 carrying my dream phone..sony ericsson z610 in pink..i want the blue wan..*envy envy*

after lunch went for wcom tutorial..teacher made us think of a topic to do survey on..and list 5-8 questions and by 2.45 we must go out of the class and approach 2-3 people each..

its so unexpected!..so impromtu..

but gained some confidence in approaching people..which i tink is good!..

i got hold of one gal also from acc and jac..

i can feel the change in me..can u?..

miracles do happen

went to eat wild turtle soup near balestier dere..lol..some of u may be shocked or maybe some may say, 'yuck!'..but its actually quite nice..its my daddy's fav. i rmb..went dere with bro, sis and mum..i tink it's been one year plus since i drank the turtle soup..tat area have quite alot of yummy food..*drooling*..

after tat went to bugis to watch 'sinking of japan'..luckily my mascara today is water-proof de..if not u will see a black face..is soooooo touching..the sound effects and all are great..they are willing to sacrifice their lifes to save the others..the main actor sO handsome!..in the last part he lost his life..*sobsob*..but its for a good cause..MUST WATCH!..my mum's right abt this movie..totally loved it..

after the movie headed towards sembawang shopping mall to have our dinner at a thai restaurant..the things are quite cheap and tasty..ordered one big plate of pineapple rice..fried fish..fried cuttlefish and veg for 5 of us..on average..each only have to pay $5..*yumyum*

love this song in the movie..enjoy..(:

blogger

tsktsk..i changed my blogskin to the original de cos i feel lyk changing it.but blogger something wrong, i carn seem to republish..all my friend link cannot see..i'll try again later..hopefully can republish..watched the live sermon on the net in the evening..mum still dun let me go..*sobsob*

Psalm 126:5-6

Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy. He who goes out weeping, carrying seed to sow will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with him.

leg cramp~

argh!

ytd accidentally pulled my leg muscle..so pain lah!..

somemore no one at home..i just screamed but no one come to help me..but luckily it's gone for a while later..hais..now still abit pain..maybe cos i wore low heel shoe to sch today..tsktsk..i can feel my muscle swollen..painpain..*sob*

reached home at 9 plus after the ERS meeting..waited for a long time though b4 we get started the meeting..but its understandabe..(:

enviro day is coming..pls show ur support NP..pls come down to atrium if u can on the 10 nov i tink..if i nv rmb wrongly..

super tired now..see you in my dreamland..(;

nitez!

surprise for me~

today is just another great day..but i feel lyk i'm living in my own world..

had our LMS and IAC classes today..quite fun..(:

especially with all the jokers in my grp..haha..lalala~

went home with shifu..it rained so heavily..but i liked it..the bus took so damn long to come..argh!..

hais..y carn dere be a direct bus from woodlands to np..so troublesome..

when i checked my mail just now..i simply screamed..lol..

i've receieved an email from seventeen magazine abt the movie screening and other fun stuffs i've submitted to them..

wahaha..

i carn wait for tat day to come alr..so lucky..thank God!..lovelove..

its gonna be a great day..(:

People..can help me do this?..its a personality test abt me..i hope to know more abt me..my blindspot and all..plspls..

http://kevan.org/johari?name=yishan

those who have done..thank you so much..(:

3 gatsu 9 ka

In the middle of the changing season

i casually feel how long the day is

in the midst of restless busy days,

you and i paint our dream

place our love on the winds of march

a cherry blossom sprout will move on into spring

little specs of overflowing light

warm up the morning little by little

by your side when you're embarrassed

after a big yawn

standing at the entrance to a new world

what i noticed was that i wasnt alone

by closing my eyes

the you who i see behind my eyelids

has somehow helped me become stronger, right?

i too want to be like that for you

*i wan to be lyk tat for u too..thank u everyone beside
me..i appreciate it alot..this post is delicated to all of u..*

at last~

went to sake sushi to celebrate my bro's bday..

it seems a long time since the whole family spend time together..

really loved the feeling..hope deres more of tat..

i ate unagi bento again..the serving is too much for me..but still..i managed to finish all..

i wished i could take those precious moments down..i need a camera!..

although daddy's not dere with us..i know tat he's happy for us..(:

i miss him so much~

mum bought coco-exotic from four leaves

my family likes this cake alot..*beam*

i liked the chocolate mousse and biscuit in between..yumyum..

but its abit too sweet..

lets spend more quality time together!

disgusting~

went to school in the morning for my first environment rangers society meeting..

everyone seems friendly..felt quite easy with them especially with hui min and her friends dere..

i liked the way the V.P handle the task..

hope i will be able to learn alot from dere..

after meeting..i went to meet sharon..on my way to woodlands..

i saw this indian man on the MRT with his friends..

u know wad i saw?!

he licked the pole..

OMG..

damn digusting!..

3 times..

i wonder wad he is tinking..

tmr is Bro's bday..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE!

have a great day tmr..(:

So yesterday~

l

wad a day~

feeling abit sick today..i guess tats due to lack of slp..lolx..

went back home immediately and slept for hours..

after all those rest i'm feeling quite alive now..(:

Sorry!..i owe an apology for my cg..

i really carn go for today's cg..having my lil' sis to take care of..):

i shouldn't have broke the promise..forgive me k?..

esp..aly..

have u been uncertain or unsure of who u are at times?..

have u lost ur 'selves'?..i've lost 'myself'..i believe i will be able to be Me again..a new me rather..

cos i've got god's blessing..

i wish u could share ur stories with me..(:

Lucky~

today we had our Life Management Skills class..

having felt quite down these days..

i thought i would land into a class where deres a class of complete strangers..

but when i saw simeng stepped into the class..i'm just relieved..(:

she's just so fun-loving..the complete opposite of me..

deres also some familiar faces..

phew..

its good to meet more people..but i guess i'm still not ready to open up....

..

why do u always knew the right things to say when i'm feeling down?..

it seems that u could read what's inside me..

if one day..if only one day..

can i rely on u?..

silence makes me want to scream~

haix..ytd wanted to update my blog..but..blogger server down i tink..
school was fun today..esp having such a fun-loving lecturer..
but..
deres something wrong with my mood..felt rather down today..

wads the think that is missing in my life?..

school~

school starting tmr..

part of me wanted to enjoy the school..

but

the other part of me still want to enjoy the holiday..

but i carn change the fact that tmr sch's starting..(:

so..i might as well enjoy it..

deres only 2 hrs of lecture tmr..wees~

but the lecture hall is so farway..sobsobx..

i guess i'm still not prepared for school tmr..no choice though..

TA08..welcome back..(:

love letter~

found this love letter in the book.." message in a bottle"..by nicholas sparks..

i find it quite touching..so i'd like to share it with u..(:

graduation~

i've heard this song played on the radio b4 i went out..

it triggers the memory i had during the prom night..

the day we had..the times we shared..

lets be friends forever..class 4/3 rocks..

we remember all the times we had together..

and just nice..i today is the graduation day for the 'O' level cohort..

i miss 4/3..

after tat went to orchard to shop..bought quite few things..

1 pair of shoe..1 jeans and 1 book..i saw it in seventeen magazine..

called..'At first sight' by nicholas sparks..

quite a few incidents happen..but i feel so tired now..(:

*all the times we had together as a class..friends forever!*

excited!~

school starting soon..i just carn wait to go back to school..

but..i know dere will be tonnes of tutorials and projects..i just hope tat i could cope everything..

i wan to buy new pencilbox..its time to change a new wan..lolx..

shopping tmr..wees~..

dere are so many things tat i need for the new semester..

new semester = new start..

i've learnt my lesson last sem..i need to work harder this time round..

i'll try very hard not to make the same mistakes again..

to be able to breathe the fresh air makes me feel so good..(:

wads my future tat awaits for me?..

what's left of me~

i've been reading this book, ' why am i afraid to tell you who i am?'..by john powell..

it's quite a nice book..but alot of words i dont know..haix..have to brush up my english..

deres alot of treasures in this book..u may want to find this book in the library..(:

' if i tell you who i am, you may not like who i am, and it is all that i have.'

maybe its because of being afraid of the way people see me..tats why i have been acting lyk tat..shy..timid..whatever~..

but i hate it!..

changes please..

*No matter where your branches spread, never forget your roots*

real selves~

we have talked about placing masks over the face of our 'real' selves, and of playing roles which disguise our true real selves.

The implication is that somewhere, inside of you and inside of me, lurk our real selves.

There is no fixed, true and real person inside of you or me, precisely because being a person necessarily implies becoming a person, being in process.

If i am anything as a person, it is what I :

think

judge

feel

value

honour

esteem

love

hate

fear

desire

hope for

believe in

and

am committed to.

these are the things that define my person, and they are constantly in process, in the process of change. Unless my mind and heart are hopelessly barricaded, all these things that define me as a person are forever changing

by: john powell

stinky day~

omg..

i so stinky today lo..shuay shuay..

went to macson's hse after the church service to celebrate moon cake festival with rest of the church members..

near the gate towards his apartment..

i found that deres something stuck on my shoe..

guess wads tat..

is dog shit..

so stinks!..sobsob..):

so pai seh la!..

stinks throughout the night..

went to clear it up..

eeeee~

but i need to thank elaine..(:

the whole celebration was quite okay..

made lantern..our lantern..hais..cannot make it..lolx..

took bus home with Lp..yan shuang..ben and wei jie..

my shoe super stink throughout the bus journey in 168..

so embarassed..):

everyone was lyk looking arnd..searching for the smell..

i kept my head low all the time..i face to see ppl..esp the lady beside me..

i have to apologise to everyone for the smell..

haix..

but everything's ok already..(:

*can i hide a hole to hide?..*

moon cake festival~

it's moon cake festival..

looking thru the window..

its so hazy..just hoped that everything is gonna be alrite again..

just now went down to play some candles and sparklers..

there's one grp of boys beside me..very playful..carn stand them..lolx..

the thing is that they play they sparklers in a dangerous way..

i just scared that someone will get hurt..

their parents also nv care..haix..

after playing..went home and ate some mooncakes..

yumyum..

is green tea and red bean flavour..very tempting..i ate abt 1/4 of it..(:

wahaha..growing fat soon..

today~

world trade centre~

felt changes going on arnd me..
everything seems to change..
small ones to big ones..
but hope it'll change for the better..(:
i wan to watch movie..
who wan to accompany to watch world trade center?..lol..
seems lyk a very nice movie..

even the trailer have touched my heart..dunno how i will react when i watch it..

everything seems peaceful then..but something changed everybody's life..

*treasure everything arnd u*

you~

just love raining days..

if i'm at home..

loved the smell of the rain..the sound tat goes pitter patter pitter patter..

and wind that u feel..

but if ur're out of the hse..its such a trouble..
tink i gonna be sick soon~..

haix..

colourblind~

new month..i have a new mindset~..

20 more days to bro's bday..lolx..

dunno wad present to gib..

above is the lyrics of a song called colourblind..

which i loved it so much~..

*Saying sorry is not the same as being sorry*

1st oct~

1st day of the month..

nth special today..

i tink i ought to set some goals in my life..

it seems tat i am wandering arnd..on the track of my life..

i have to do something meaningful..but wad?..

hmmm...

i wan to change into a better me..

one who is decisive..

able to console ppl whenever needed..

not tat quiet me..

haix..i have to be out of the safety zone..to go out dere..

experiencing new things..

not to be afraid of things..

*searching for my goal*